>I remember tons of passwords, user names, account information, last log in, where the dirty socks got hidden, why is there a banana under the edge of that furniture, what will I do about the blender, what happen when I was 12….I remember a lot good and bad and some just mundane. I wonder sometimes how I remember it all, I often get overwhelmed with all that circles in my head in a day. Like today, I have to remember to go and pick up 4 of my kids in one place and the other two at another place…for 14 short hours I will have had time with just Donnie and now just all by myself. I don’t remember how to do this, in fact I don’t think I like it. I am the only one in the house I feel like crying, but I won’t. My life has drastically changed in the last few years, weeks, DAYS. My lifestyle has been turned upside down, mostly for the better, but I am not sure of the Passwords for this new stuff. It doesn’t come quick and easy like logging on to my email. I am unsure of my footing. Yesterday I was looking around, seeing people all around me, a few who even knew how my life would change this morning, weirdly, and just don’t get it. I don’t get it. I will find my routine, I will figure it out, we will all thrive and continue in gratitude for this change, probably more once we adjust. I think that God sometimes mixes things up a little for me. I have a tendency to get complacent, even lazy, I pray and read the bible, ask for a new day and He in all his wisdom, gives me this day. I experienced days much like this one a few years ago, the spirit of those days weren’t joyful, or with gratitude, at least not initially. This day, season, came with a different set of circumstances and reasons. But learning something new always seems hard. I hate change. Change is inevitable in our lives. Even this, good change, hopeful change, feels too familiar and too different all at once. I feel like humming….
Seasons…turn, turn, turn….
Change is okay today, even if I do hate it.
What can you embrace that you don’t enjoy today?

>MUM, Memphis Urban Missions, is the word this week in our family.
http://www.memphisurbanministry.com/summerdaycamp.html
Today, I had the awesome opportunity to drive a van full of 4-6 graders down town to the Downtown Church and help out at the Summer Day Camp. Our children, cozied up next to the Downtown Church kids, we played ‘duck, duck, goose’, sang songs, learned songs and learned about the Armor Of God, after that we did word puzzles. I was move to tears as I sat and was taught how to teach, again today, with a simple, sweet little boy, who needed help reading, and a hug. In the morning my teenagers will leave with our youth group from Highland Street and go down town for what they fondly call ‘Power Hour’, it is more like 4 hours. They will play games, do skits, serve food and eat lunch with kids with very different lives than them. On the way back to the meet up spot with a van full of kids, I was reminded by the Lord that the only difference between those children and our on is opportunity…..for education, safety, hope….JESUS. I have the awesome responsibility every day to teach my children, I often wonder, especially about my special needs kiddos, what would have happened if they fell through the cracks, how their lives would be different. Know more children through the cracks. That is a high hope, some may say an unattainable goal. It is the goal for every kid in my life. I want to fill their cracks. I want my on children to fill cracks with the solid mortar of the truth of Jesus Christ every day, in every life they come into contact with. God has been good to us, let’s all be good back. Let us remember it isn’t what we think it is the opportunities we have been offered….go offer some.